Hi Vickie
I am so very sorry for your loss, its so difficult to over come...
mine is a positive one after 2 mc's!
About 2 months of trying after our wedding we fell pregnant naturally, went to doc and all and we were so excited BUT i had slight spotting.... ended up that we found out at 7 weeks that a fetus didnt develop and basically stopped at 5 weeks (blighted ovum) so i had to have a D&C to remove it..... i was devastated heartbroken and thought everything was my fault .... we tried again immediately but it took 6 months that time and i was in tears and everytime i saw a mom i cried..... anyways we fell pregnant BUT alas spotting again (both times very minor no cramping nothing, spotting happened when i was supposed to get period but i took a test anyway).... this pregnancy also ended early and this time on its own.... this time round we told no one and it was much harder no one knowing than everyone knowing.....
After the second one i just couldnt take it and wanted to give up. We were in the UK for the above and were moving back to SA so hubby said lets leave it and move back home and get jobs and see how it goes so we did, anyways after a year at my job we tried and in the first month fell pregnant AGAIN third time lucky? Well i started spotting yet again and i tell you this time i was really paranoid ..... its all happening again why oh why... anyways here i am 36 WEEKS!!!!! breyton is kicking away and i cant wait for his arrival
So third time, i still had spotting from 5 weeks right through till 10 weeks (gynae said i had a yeast infection so i took creams and probiotics for a month and then spotting stopped).... i did have a few panic stations, like calling emergency gynae at 7 weeks to scan me on a saturday i was in tears and uncontrollable thinking it was all over..... when my naseous stopped i went to gynae convinced everything was all over lol now i can laugh
Long story short miracles do happen and one is kicking me right now! SO never give up, DH never did, i almost did and i am glad i didnt.... have faith and believe that everything happens for a reason if i look back now i know back then wasnt the right time for us and now is the right time... so you know what i am at peace with the past and looking forward to the future.
I will pray for you and hope everything works out