Ok, so I am nowhere near entertaining the thought of having a second child - nowhere near!!
Right now, I am of the opinion that 1 is enough for me (more than enough some days) and that Emily will be an only child. I am getting lots of flack from DH and family about this and DH says let's talk again in 2 years time - I'm happy with that arrangement.
BUT - I keep hearing people talk about this overwhelming urge to have another baby and it almost seems instinctual. And all the while I am thinking "please don't let this happen to me". If I should decide to have another child, please let me be in a logical frame of mind and let the person making the decision be me and not some crazy "motherly instint" or whatever - let it be Charne who makes the decision............ please.
And now I have this weird feeling, its been coming for a while and I have been trying VERY hard to ignore it - but it's getting worse. I have this crazy urge to be pregnant again!!!! What the Hell!! No crazy urge to actually have the baby that pregnancy results in, no not yet, just want to be pregnant again!!! When I think about it logically, then, no I do not want to be pregnant. But when I see a pregnant person or remember little things about when I was pregnant, then there is a little something inside me that wants to be pregnant again - (please go away you crazy feeling).
WTF is up with that!!
Please tell me this is not the start of something and that I will not suddenly a few months from now have an inkling to have another baby - the logical me does not want another baby now..
Is this how it starts???
