HI
This is the right plavce to vent. We all go through all the emotions and it makes it better to share our thoughts and feelings.
I am sorry to hear about your experience so far. I have not had a MC so I can only imagine that it was devistating
You are a good age. So don't give up yet. We''ve ttc'd for 7 years (on and off) and I finally got my BFP last week.
I also have sliight PCOS and went on a very strict eating plan and lost 17kg. I went to a different FS and whala!!! I am 5 weeks pregnant tomorrow.
I know I am still high risk and anything could happen, but I am positve and believe and trust in GOD and that he will protect my baby.
We get our down days and it is OK. We need those as well. 10DPO is still early to get a BFP....so hang in there. Give it another few days. We only test after 14DPO. If you still get a BFN, cry, sulk and pick yourself up.
I know its not that easy, but I do believe that in the end its all worth it.
Good luck and keep strong. Pray and ask God for guidance on what you should do and TRUST HIM that HE knows best. He's got perfect timing