TTC 2012 Group Year of the ball, Year of the bump

Hayley. I am so sorry for your heart ace. Yesterday in church (mosaiek) trevor hudson, it felt like they were giving me a message. I cried all through the service. Should be on popcast later this week on their website. It was about Matthew 26:36-45. It was when Jesus went to Gethsemane and he praid to his Father :“My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will.” And how Jesus was feeling so sad and alone. He even said to Peter: “My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death. Stay here and keep watch with me.” And they then said that sometime we life in our own Gethsemane were your soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death. And I was thinking this is how I feel!!! My life has been taken over with this extreme sorrow. Try and listen to the podcast when it is uploaded ( mosaiek.podbean.com/ ) But then he said when you are in your Gethsemane he can offer you 3 points of advice. One is have some one you can talk to. Do not do it alone. Some one you can trust that will just listen. And that is the most important thing, we need to tell our close family/friend or just some one how we feel. The ''cup'' will not be taken away from us - if that is the bigger plan, but at least you can tell some one about it!
After the services yesterday I was feeling a bit tender! And we had the whole family over and low and behold when we sat down for dinner my suster in law announced she is 5 weeks pregnant! I wanted to cry! And DH is in the UK and I felt all alone, but then my dad came to me and he just said to me that he knows I am in my Gethsemane and I should get a glase of wine and he will just listen! I felt better afterwards! Still tender and crying and gatvol and wish it could be me, but at least I did not have to be alone last night as I did talk to some one!
My heart breaks for you Hayley, I feel the same, I had enouth, I am tired and gatvol and I can not do this anymore. I hurt every day, every second, and my soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death! And I think that is how you are feeling!!!
My thoughts are with you, and take some time, but please promise me you will not do it on your own, you should have some one that you can confine in when enouth is enouth, just to be able to rant about it.

Hi girls

Hayley, i'm so sorry for all the heartache and pain, i wanna give you a big virtual hug. All i can say i feel with you and Sue!!!!

Sue, i'm sorry about af.

Hi all the other girls!!! Tracy, Ika, Esmari, Klk, SH, Ankia, Simone!!!!!! Hope you had a lovely weekend.

Af started friday so ...... back to square 1 and trying again. I'm not even gonna rant and rave, i think a lot of you know the feeling.

Morning Ladies

Hayley, I am so sorry about what you are going through! It breaks my heart...... If you wanna chat, inbox me on fb.

Sue, sorry about af! Fx for your poa.

Ladies, I have to share something with you. My friend just started her internship over here. So on saturday she told us something that made me go WHAT? I dont remember when this happened, but one day a lady came in with fertility issues. She couldnt understand why she is not pregnant yet. So my friend started taking her history....... On her question on how many times a week they bd, it came out that they werent at all! They did not know where babies came from. They didnt know about sex! Guess they grew up very cnservative.
Just made me realize how important it is giving our kids the right sex education.

Hayley - I am so very sorry hunny !!!! Your post just broke my heart - you have been through way too much for too long! I was so hoping it was BFP when i smsed you! Focus on what you do have and heal girl - you really need it!

Morning ladies.

Sue : Sorry about AF BUT, you have a POA, and that's brillinat!!!
Clomid is about R130 odd, the generic Fertomid is about R90. I was on the Fertomid to save a bit of money where I could, and it worked wonders! Good luck!!!!
Do you have the script already from your gynae? Sorry, can't remember....

KLK : Shame man, hope your LB is MUCH better today, and you got some sleep?? I HATE it when they liek that - you just don't know what to do to make it any better! But hoping it's agoood Monday for you two!

SH : I'm also SUPER relaxed about it all. We bd'd 3 times, last night being the 3rd one, and I have NO worries about it being the "right" timing or not.....I'm really not worried!
Have my gynae app this Thursday or Friday (can't remeber, I have to phone and check!)....even thinking of manybe postponing that too....just not in the mood, if that makes sense??

Right, it's my last day of month end madness, so I must dash - will chat again soon as I can!!

Good Morning,

I do not ussually chat her, I sometimes answer a question or 2. But I want to tell my story!

Hayley, I am so sorry my friend. I think of you regulary.

I started ttc again for no 2, in Aug 2009. After a year of charting, doc appointments, staminigro a SA for hubby (They found out hubby had slow sperm) and every natural thing you could think about. I decided to take a break. I did not think about another baby, we used condoms when I thought that it was my fertile time, but I was not worried that I would get pregnant, not with Hubbies Sperm Count.

Well on my last cycle, we did not BD much, it was over Christmas, so the days we bd was day 7, day 8 & day 13, with no protection, we did not have any. But I was not concerned, because of the slow sperm. I ussually ovulated on day 12, so I was not not even thinking about it.

But yes I did get my BFP on 11 Jan, without even thinking about
I only counted the days after I found out I was pregnant.
So ladies, after alot of crying and heartache, I got my bfp with no charting, no timed bd, no nothing. Hubby was on no medication.

So what I am trying to say is, it will happen when you least expect it, and when you not even thinking about it.

You ladies are super, and I know how it feels to see AF arrive month after month. Be strong, and I hope my story inspire you to take it easy (I know it is not easy), but try, take that needed break, you all deserve it.

Hayley my friend, please let me know if you want to chat.

Morning ladies

Hayley...I am really so sorry to hear about your heartache. Take the time that you need to heal and to focus on other things rather that on TTC. I know that during this time you don't want to hear stuff like "it will happen when it must happen". After all the heartache that you suffered, you have every reason to be selfish and angry and hurt. Just know that we are here for you...

How are the other ladies doing?

My cycle was REALLY boring. On cd19 today, only BD on 8, 10 and 13. But I'm really calm about it, not even seeing myself as in the 2ww and just waiting patiently for AF to arrive. It actually feels nice not to have to worry about symptoms and HPT etc...I decided we will BD when we feel like it, and if we don't, I'm not going to feel guilty