TTC 2012 Group Year of the ball, Year of the bump

This might be one selfish post, and I will tell each and everyone of you exactly how I'm feeling at the present moment. As I'm typing this msg to you, all my good friends, I'm in tears!

Awhile a go we were talking about how some woman are giving up after 3 months or of TTC BUT I am now done!! After 18 months of trying and medication as well as FS and gynae's and medical bills, scans etc, I'm so over it!!

I know I have said I would be going for the op but in all honesty I'm SHIT scared especially after being under anesthetic with Liam, so I have decided against this op.

This is a VERY touchy subject for me and hubby and its doing no good for our marriage. There's my pregnant friend, telling me to go for the op so it can give me the chance of being a mother again, easy for her to say, she's already pregnant, DAMMIT!!

I'm emotionally drained, heartsore, dissapointed and full of anger! I have decided on my own, no more op, gynae's, scans, medication and no more TTC, if it happens, then brilliant but I'm not gonna force it.

I'm also gonna try distance myself from the thread, but I will of course with the greatness of pleasure keep and eye on you all and pop in and post occasionally.

I wish each and everyone of you the best of luck with your TTC journey and may you all have your well deserved babies soon..

Hayley x x x x x x x x x x

Ah no man!!! Sorry Hayley, yeah, maybe wait a day or so....

Simone, I'm SO hoping that Sue, Strikkie and myself are using faulty tests!

TaNasha, I think Sunday is better depending on my chart as well, but once AF has come and gone, I'm having the op!

aww Hayley, maybe wait till Sunday morning and test again then?

Hi Andy! Enjoy the bd”ing now that dreaded AF gone:-)

Hayley ag no man:-( I can't believe this! I am hoping u all are buying faulty tests!!! I'm really so unimpressed with all 3 of your tests...we all thought we were celebrating with u ladies this weekend....*sigh*

Well its not over yet so let's wait it out and hope those negatives are false!

Thank you ladies for all the support!

Well this afternoons test is a BFN, will wait tomorrow morning again. So I just don't know what my chart is doing then

Have a good evening ladies

Hello Andy and Laliek x x x

Hiya girls!!

THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY!!! That's all I can say. Shew, these last 2 and a half weeks since I'm back at work has been a nightmare!! I am totally exhausted. Going to need another holiday when this is all over.

I just need to tell you guys something, because nobody but you ladies will get it... OK, so you know I'm doing stocktake right? So I'm busy capturing all the stock and we've got some codes starting with CM-... and CD-... and everytime I come across these codes I smile by myself or giggle, but I can't explain to the ladies in the office why I'm laughing!! They just won't think it's as funny as I do.

Maybe it isn't that funny really, I'm just very tired and silly.

Hayley, I REALLY hope this is it for you. Just think, you can start chatting on a month thread!! How exciting.

Sue and Strikkie, the girls have said it, but I just want to reitterate... It's not over until AF is actually here. But you know your own body, so if you think it's over... Anyway, I'm still keeping my fingers crossed.

Who had the last BFP anyway?

On my side AF is packing her bags, so we can start BD again this weekend. Not going overboard again like last month again. Just going to do the normal every second day thing.

Have a great weekend girls!! I'm going to pass out early tonight... Straight after The Bachelorette (if I make it that late) and tomorrow we're going to see a Emo Adams performance and then I'm in the mood to go hire Grey's Anatomy Season 1 and just veg out in front of the TV the rest of the weekend.