Trying for a 2017 Baby

@ Anzel, I read your post with tears in my eyes cos I can relate to the disappointment and heartache you feel.
I also question God sometimes although I know he has a plan for us all. but I also find comfort in knowing that everything happens in God's time and everything that is now breaking us will one day make us stronger.
I strongly believe that 1 day we WILL get our BFP's and WE WILL hold our precious bundles in our arms just like millions of others out there that conceive by mistake.
I cannot begin to imagine the pain you feel of the loss you have had. consider the loss your guardian angel. he/she will always be watching over you.

@Ayesh - absolutely nobody has a right to look down on you!
yes I also feel down at times. and feel like i'm not good enough as a woman but we ARE good enough and 1 day in God's time you will conceive.

you ladies at least have some assurance that your body is capable of conceiving. I have never had a bfp. and after a lap and hysteroscopy I was told by the FS that my tubes are blocked and the only way to conceive was through IVF. aside from not have the finances for it. DH and I are of the strong belief that if we do not conceive naturally there are many babies that do not have homes and are longing for the love that we have to give. and that is our plan.

Hi Ladies

@Anzel & @Ayesha, words fail me when I read your post. I cannot fathom what you are going through.
I’m so sorry for your loss, for your pain, for your grief and for your sadness.
Please know that even though we all might be miles apart that we are only a message away and are here to support you through it all.

@Ayesha, so sorry for your bfn, it is most heartbreaking to see someone have what you have been wanting for so long. You are entitled to those feelings and don’t let anyone else make you feel like you are hopeless. You are amazing!! How are you feeling today?

@Anzel, I am so sorry for your rough day. Know that you are special!! It is okay to cry, it is your way of expressing how you feel, as it must be so awful for you. Crying isn’t a weakness, it is a sign of having tried too hard to be strong for too long. How are you feeling today?
Thank you for your advice with the OPKs!

@Nikita: How are you? where are you now in your cycle?

@Pokkeltjie: FX for you!

@Joo~ste: How are you doing? Have you tested? FX for you too!

@Liza: How are you doing?

@Megs: How are you doing? Where are you now in your cycle? Have you tested yet?

@MsR: I really hope that it is not a kidney infection! Have you been to see the dr for it?

AFM: CD9 today, no cm yet, quite weird actually as I usually have some show round about now.. will take Anzel’s advice and start testing with OPKs from CD12.

Hi ladies

I caved this morning could not wait till tomorrow....abd lo an behold a huge BFN, think a small part of me died seeing that, dont know if im just overly emotional or what, just feel like we try so hard and yet it brings heart ache and yet some people (though it sounds ugly of me to say) who dont have a motherly bone in there body have babys so easy!

I have been so excited to test thinking its our month and yet nothing, maybe next month is becoming a horid thought in my mind!

My hubbys cousins wife is expecting, and though i am so happy for them, i could feel every1s eyes on me as if to say im a failure, n i mean they all turned to look at me as if to judge my reaction to it all!

I am so fed up, i feel as though i am letting every1 down...i feel empty inside today, my period is due tomorrow and maybe im testing to early again or maybe it is gonna show tommorro...all i know is i feel like quitting...like if i quit i cant hurt any1 else, i dont have to c my hubbys disappointment or my in laws, just wish they could feel an ounce of the disappointment i feel

Hi, ladies

I am having a very rough day so far. I have been crying and feeling depressed since I woke up. I did a HPT test and it was obviously negative, which further dampened my mood. I threw the stick away and spoke to God and said: I don't know if I'm ever going to see another double line again. And it breaks my heart. How can it be that you have this unquestionable desire to have a baby, without it being in God's plan? Would God, who knows us so well, give us such a desire without the plan to give it to us? I am just man-down today... Just want to curl up in a ball and not get out of bed, but life goes on. I went to our little grave in the backyard this morning and started crying again. Why did it have to happen? Why did I have to lose my baby? And why is TTC so hard? I am on CD23 today of a cycle who knows how long - My gynae says it can take up to six weeks to get AF again after a D&C. I really feel so discouraged and hopeless and powerless today. Which I could make it happen, or make the time go by faster...

Not even the prospect of an overseas trip can get me excited anymore. There is very little that can excite me after the miscarriage - Maybe a big piece of chocolate cake - I will eat my emotions up! But this is the problem - It will cause me to gain weight again. And I can't afford that. I need to look after myself first, focus on other things, but it is not so easy.

I am so sorry for this rant and vent. Hubby saw me crying this morning, but I know it makes him feel bad if I do that. So I'm trying not to freak him out too much. Tears is enough. This rant will not be taken well by him. I'm normally the positive, optimistic one in our relationship, but now... I don't know anymore. And the end of June marks our 2 years anniversary TTC... 2 freakin years. Lots of money spent on blood tests, ovulation tests, pregnancy tests, medication, specialist and gynae visits and tissues for all the disappointing months. Why can't we just fall pregnant for free, like so many other young teenagers? It is so freakin unfair. Yesterday was three weeks since our loss - Some days are better than others. I'm trying my very best to remain positive, hopeful and excited about the future. But I just don't feel it right now.

hi Jooste,

I see that you have had 3 BFP's with Femara.
have there been any side effects with Femara? I have a script from the FS for about a year now and we just always hoped that it would happen naturally. we live in hope I suppose.
wonder if I should give Femara a try.

Hello Moomies....

I agree @ with the meat allergy...must be hectic especially if you are a meat lover!

Definitely ovulated/or ovulating on both sides - had quite painful mittelschmerz pains on both side the whole of yesterday and still a bit this morning. Had to take a few myprodols just to ease the pain a bit - not use to ovulation pains so this was quite hectic for me! Happy to know that I finally ovulated though....but even if I changed my mind about skipping this cycle I wouldn't be able to even grab hubby as the cramps I was getting was just too painful! And ofcourse DH is still a bit upset with me for wanting to skip this cycle

But there is still a slight possibility as we BD on Monday night - if I ovulated yesterday it would be 3 days and if I ovulate today it will be 4 days According to the scan gynae said I would ovulate either last night or this morning...and with the cramps on both side I am sure she is correct! So we will just have to wait and see....

@ Anzel - that is soooo awesome and such a good idea to go overseas! Would definitely take your mind off things and just give you the opportunity to relax and unwind from the rest of the world!
I am sure everyone would understand that it would be a reminder and heart breaking for you to be around when your sister gives birth. I say go and have a ball of a time - might just be what you and DH needs!

Hi, ladies

How are you doing today?

@Nikita - So glad that you are doing ok! That meat allergy sounds awful, though! Can you eat chicken and other lean proteins?

@Jooste - FX'ed for your BFP tomorrow! Really praying hard for a few miracles on this page! My sister in law was really freaked out about my miscarriage, but she is doing fine now that she has seen the baby and its heartbeat last week Friday. She is just over 12 weeks now. So I'm sure she will have a healthy pregnancy.

@Pokkeltjie - I agree with @Jooste - BD in anyhow. It's not to say that all four follies will take? And this means that you have a one in four chance of conception! Odds are so much better! I don't get more than one follie on 100mg Fertomid/Clomid, although I wish to have twins. My gynae is not keen on upping my dose either. So I'll have to wait and see. Good luck to you!

@Ayesha - It's very hard when family doesn't understand how difficult our TTC journey is. They put a lot of pressure on us to "produce" babies, not knowing how hurtful it can be. Just know that we are here for you and will support you all the way! Hugs to you!

AFM, CD22 for me. I've had tiny spots of brown on TP when I wiped for the last two days. Not sure what that is about. It's literally half the size of a split pea; so its very small, but it is noticeable. Cramping have subsided, headaches also. I'm now patiently waiting for AF to arrive. Hubby and I have decided to visit family in Australia over December, when our baby would have been due. I've never been outside SA, so it is going to be very exciting, and it's going to help keep my mind occupied when the due date approaches. My mom is not very happy - she expected me to be there when my sister in law gives birth to her daughter. But I don't want to punish myself like that, especially knowing I was supposed to be due a few weeks after her. So this is something that we are really excited about - I was just shocked at what flight tickets cost! Good gracious!