Morning ladies
Hope you all had a wonderful Easter
Thank you @trenge @Cands for your messages xxxx
@HOPE I am so so sorry about AF hun....feeling your pain

It really does never get any easier. You will be blessed I promise. Keep fighting and keep strong xxx
@Mesh same goes for you....so sorry

fingers crossed for your next cycle xxxx
@Ayesha gosh that is a long time to spot. Would it be worth going to see a fertility specialist maybe? Do you know when you will ovulate yet this month? xxx
@Trenge prayers to you for a BFP cycle!! Sounds positive so go for it!!! Great that he has some new found energy too!! If you don't mind me asking what is ED that your husband suffers from? xxx
@Mama K i hope you had a wonderful time in Mafikeng with your family sending lots of love xxxx
So ladies Im guessing i'm on CD4 if all this heavy bleeding is AF. Lots of clots and tissue on sunday, ended up cancelling the Easter braai we had planned at friends and hibernated, feel sad I didn't see any friends over the whole weekend but I just couldn't face anyone. Hubby and I went to beautiful place West coast national park on sunday for some time out by the sea. Feeling so sad, even though I knew it may not work first time the heartbreak is still there and still so heavy. In fact i'm sure its getting worse every cycle. And a whole week early too...that has never happened in my cycle at all. I still have to go for blood test tomorrow but is it even worth it?? I'm going to ask them to ring my husband with the results, I don't need another negative phonecall!!
We have decided to stop everything now, no fertomid, no opk, no timing. Just stop and take a break for a few months. We have decided also to make an appointment at the private adoption agency just to see what the process is for adopting a newborn. Fact is we want a family desperately and if we cant make one ourselves our last option (besides donor egg but still not 100% guarantee) is to help a child in need and give him/her a wonderful loving home. I've also decided to study business management to give our business a bit of a push, it is doing so well but could do with some more professional assistance so here I go...last time I studied was in 2000 at Damelin hahah!!
Anyway ladies thank you all for being there. We will get through this together! Praying April brings some BFP's so we can all celebrate!
Lots of love and babydust
xxxx