Time to begin TTC 2019!

Hi All

Hope everyone is doing good...
Tww ladies fingers double crossed and the stickiest of babydust for you!

Afm im a bag of emotions cd9 seeing the specialist August 17 bright and early.
I hope the low amh is not a train smash im excited and fearful of going.

A friend gave birth last week to the cutest little boy a tad bit of me was so jello before giving birth she complained of swollen feet and achy this & that i just had to tell her be greatful theres many that wish it were them.

My fb account is full of babies and preggy post i literally had to switch my brain off to not feel anything at all.
I refuse to join ttc 2020 being 33 with all the time on my hands and my body dont want to give me what i want.
I wish i could deal with my emotions way better than i should thus i avoid being on forum that much.

Ive decided to visit a safe haven for fostered kids next week not sure if its a good idea because i know i will feel broken and emotional when i leave.

So current options is...
Trying naturally
Iui(cost dependent)
Fostering
Adoption(through government long wait and less cost)

My apologies for the long post.

Keep well...will randomly pop in to see progress

NicolaF wrote: i definitely see a 2nd line!!! but i guess it depends on how soon it came up on the test....if it was there 5mins after taking the test then I would say its a BFP....but 20mins it could be an evap. Arrghhhhhh how frustrating Ayesha shame....will you test again? xxx

I have one more clear blue and one m ore dischem brand. I don't know if I wanna torture myself further(I probably will). It's driving me insane. I'm driving myself insane. Do evap lines have color? It's my 1st time using these tests. I always use the clicks brand and I think once in like the 3 years of ttc I had an evap on those and you could see it was an evap. No color almost grey like

Baby dust
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i definitely see a 2nd line!!! but i guess it depends on how soon it came up on the test....if it was there 5mins after taking the test then I would say its a BFP....but 20mins it could be an evap. Arrghhhhhh how frustrating Ayesha shame....will you test again? xxx

I'm trying not to get my hopes up. Hate the TWW. DH threw the clear blue away, says I'm obsessing. But attached is the dischem brand

Baby dust
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Morning ladies

@Ayesha shame i'm sorry about the rash....i hope it goes away 20mins can unfortunately leave an evap line (i've learnt my lesson from this) BUT....its not to say its not positive yet there may just not be enough HCG in your blood!!! I say wait for the bloods on monday....I want this so desperately for you!!!! Gosh time is going to drag but try your hardest hun. Praying for you xxxx PS yes i agree with cands send us a pic xxx

@Lagogies oooooh yay how exciting! I pray this is your miracle baby BFP!!! I hope you manage to keep yourself busy during the 2ww...its such torture!! i'm not looking forward to mine. Rest up and keep us posted xxx

@cands how are you feeling? xxx

AFM...CD7. Today is the last day of my Femara. No side effects at all,except for feeling extremely down yesterday. Even after my acupuncture when i usually feel pretty good...i burst into tears for no reason on the way driving home! and the acupunctrure was SO sore this time! She said its because there is a lot happening in my body at the moment hormonally with the femara etc and obviously with my thoughts too so there is a lot of energy responding to the needles. She gave me another ear seed which will stimulate my uterus...hope it gets nice & thick and sticky!!! otherwise i'm all good...battling to concentrate though. My mind is constantly on TTC. Am just doing light exercise at the moment, lots of walking and today I did a spin class but I told the instructor I will just be taking it easy!

Babydust and love
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Morning Ayesha,

Send us a photo and we can check.

xxx

@lagogies fx this your cycle hun. Thanks went to dischem and they were no help at all.

11dpiui today and beta is on Monday. It seemsike years away. Caved and bought hpts but I'm not sure how reliable they are, g oit the dischem brand and the clear blue early response. Only noticed today the clear blue was blue dye :eek:

So I caved and tested yesterday and today, did the dischem one yesterday glanced at it after a min but the control line was still darkening so I left it and said I'll look at it after couple minutes and then I dozed off. Woke up about 20 minutes later and there was a very faint line, now it's very faint and light light light pink, not sure if it's an evap line or what. Did the clear blue this morning followed instructions to a t, read it with in the 10 min Mark and there was such a faint plus it looked like the test line was barely there, I mean so faint that hubby thinks I'm seeing things and I'm inclined to agree. I want this so bad that maybe I am seeing what I want to

Baby dust
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