Hi all you pregnant mama's
hope you and your babies are all well.
I am feeling extremely, extremely down after my scan today, not because of me or baby, we both doing well, baby is growing wonderfully and has reached 1.3KG already, I did go book my hospital bed, did the hospital tour just have to call in to confirm when I want to do my 4D scan.
So let me tell you why I am so emotional right now, by appointment with the gynae was at 09h30, there was one mum and her hubby before me at 09h00, I have seen them at all my visits cause she tends to have the same appointment dates as me. So she looked very tired and grumpy but she waited for her time to go in, by 10am they still were in with the gynae and the gynae called her assistants in and the gynae came to tell me, I have an emergency we will be running late, I'm really sorry but I will still see you after I'm done with this patient.
So she escorts the mum and dad out, I thought they going into hospital, then the assistant came and said, doctor said to explain to you that she is taking the patient downstairs to see the fetal specialist, cause gynae could not find a heart beat, I became so emotional girls, I started tearing cause they explained to me this patient is entering her 38th week, she has been coming in weekly since 36 weeks and the baby was fine, they came in for the weekly check and to confirm the date for her Caesar for next week, I prayed so hard that the gynae machine was wrong or not operating properly.
An hour later the gynae and the parents came back, and as the mum entered the room, she burst into tears and we all knew her little baby boy had passed away, I started crying and could not stop cause I felt so heart sore for her, she was devastated and her hubby could not stop crying. the gynae took her into the second consulting room and I could her how this mummy was crying, what did I do wrong, how could I not know, he was moving this morning, I cannot get over those words!!! I feel so devastated I can only imagine these parents. the gynae spent a lot of time counselling them and called their families to come see them there. the last words I heard the mum saying was "please don't take him out, leave him there". they booked her Caesar for this afternoon, it's the earliest they could
I only went in at 11h30 to get my turn but talking to the gynae, she was crying and was so hard for her to continue working cause she said in her entire career this is the second baby she lost and even she could not believe everything was fine, what could have gone wrong with this baby, the fetal specialist also confirmed, the baby passed away within the last few hours, the baby and all it's organs and parts were fully formed, no abnormalities or anything that can explain what happened, the baby just passed away.
I'm sorry to share this if it offends anyone, but I feel so traumatised today, I feel so sad so devastated, this was her second baby, who would know this would happen. I just prayed for the parents and their little angel who did not want to join them, and I feel very scared also, this is one of my greatest fears as pregnancy progresses, all we can do is pray and hope for the best.
So I did not enjoy my appointment today, although I had a great check up and got a lot done, my heart is very saddened!!