skyler - u are right I thought about it very little 1st time - I prepared in other ways and refused to think of the action on the day and never looked at pics, video's etc as ignorance is bliss
ladies dont lend your ears out people have horrid way of dramatising our realities - I will never forget my friend telling me their friends baba died of cot death - the day le awas born and I just though how mean can u be adding stress to my new experience (bt they dont mean anything) and we shouldnt let others tales etc get to us
but I will tell u I did natural with epi and coped with prem baba and 5mnths of colic
before that I coped with etopic preg, down syndrome scare and tests, NICU baby
and yet I am willingly here for nr 2 (planned) LOL and doing it all over again while handling a toddler so the reward is BEYOND AMAZING
and yes I can honestly say I am looking forward to the birth itself as this time I know what to expect and its the most adrenalin rushed thing I have ever done (and i have skydived, bungeed, gotten tatoo's etc) and the pain is part of it but doesnt rule the experience