Good Afternoon Lovelies!
How is everyone? Wow, I've missed a lot in my absence.
To all the new members - welcome to our little corner. It's really a great forum to be on.
To all the other lovelies that I've talked to before - sorry for my absence. Just had to take a bit of a break.
Am slowly getting back into the groove of things but, ja, taking my time. I don't know how to explain it. After my initial breakdown (it was a breakdown, believe me) I was angry and heartbroken.
Now, I just feel nothing. I feel empty. Can't particularly concentrate on work, not interested in the horses or my veggie garden, I see no joy in anything at the moment.
The one woman I work with says that I'm feeling a loss. I know it seems silly, stupid even, I wasn't pregnant or anything but I swear, I had convinced myself that I was, hoped and prayed so hard that I was and then to have AF arrive right on schedule just - broke me.
Didn't want to spread negativity around, ladies. Just wanted to let you know that I'm still alive and - well, I'm still alive. Don't know if I'm going to be so active on here but I'll do my best. Hubby and I taking a break even though it's hard especially when you want it so badly.
Yeah, yeah, I know 'drama queen'!
xx