@Anzel - Woooohooooooo its an awesome feeling getting that positive hey!!! Catch that eggy girl

Praying for you guys, we have gotten some rain in the last 24 hrs thank goodness, that heat wave was insane!
@Nikita - Im doing good, no change here. AF should be due and so far nothing, no usual spottting. I think it's the visanne doing its thing, I actually hope I don't get any AF and not the spotting that they say I might get in the first month. I so don't want this endo to get severe again... I read on my doc report that I also have a bulky uterus which is adenomyosis, that's terrifying as nobody really knows for sure if it affects implantation. Adenomyosis is basically endo of the uterus. I have my app at the end of this month with the FS and hopefully he can shed some light on the matter. I hear what you say about the whole getting irritated by people saying kids are hard work. They don't quite realise how priviliged they are to make those judgements about kids and here we are just praying that we can complain about it someday or even have a kid to call our own.
@EmJ - Be strong girl!!! i was also a huge POAS addict in the beginning, now I actually have a few lying in the cupboard and I can resist the temptation

FX for you that this is your month!!! Don't torture yourself with symptom spotting, it makes it drag on longer.
@jooste - We can honestly only pray that one day we will experience the joy of having our own baby shower/sharing great pics and announcements.
@Anzel- I actually love your approach to the whole situation, I think I also need to look at it that way and just try and be as great a friend as possible to my preggy friends.
AFM, I usually would have started spotting by now but nothing so far, I hope Visanne takes my AF away completely this month. I may as well have the full benefits of not being able to TTC and not getting AF. Hubby keeps asking things like do I think i will enjoy pregnancy, what I think it will be like and I honestly can't answer him anymore. I just feel like that severe broodiness has disappeared as I know we aren't really TTC anymore, that dream has kind of been lost and forgotten for now. I feel like we did before starting TTC, knowing I wanted kids but knowing that it wasn't yet the time. We are just slowly plodding along trying to save for IVF and trying to live a normal life.