sorry to hear you are feeling miserable Rhodine, and im sooo sorry to hear that you are being retrenched, again. That is very very KAK!!!
You did such a brave thing shaving your hair off, and it was for a good cause, and im sure it does look good.
think because you have a history of depression if you arent on medication you need to go see your dr and get a prescription, as this is a tough thing to go through, and anyone is likely get depressed.
Once your mood is up, you will feel better about yourself, and f@#$ the 14kg, they will fall off by themselves when things start to look up a bit. You have a wonderfull bf (from what ive heard and how he is with Shaun) and you have a gorgeous baby boy. You have such a beautiful reason for living!!! Get the treatment girl, and i promise you, you will be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Good luck, and remember, this venting 101, nobody cares if that is all you ever do, go ahead vent all you like. we will listen, support, and if you want, we will try and help.
Ps; what retrenchment package are they offering you?