Feb-May 2011 Mommies

Morning ladies!

Meags hon I'm so sorry love, but yes, rather give him the bottle if it makes it happier experiance for all of you. And at least you are expressing so he still gets the benifits of breastmilk.

Thanks Schatsie, and dont stress about the breastfeeding, just try to be calm about it. End of the day if you also need to express and bottle feed then so be it, doesn't make you any less of a mom.

Anje, if you want natural then dont allow your dr to just book you in for a c-section without exploring other avenues. Rather ask for an indiction and give yourself a chance to deliver naturally.

Lucy she is SO cute!! Oh and are using the cloth nappies? We have been and they work wonderfully!

Today we are just chilling at home and then going out for dinner with the family tonight. Kate still just sleeps and eats, and boy does she poop!! But still so sweet and I have heard her cry once since she got home. And it was while we were changing her.

Happy birthday Emsmom!

Shame man Meags, I'm sorry that you're battling so much with the breastfeeding and made the decision to rather give up.

I thought I'd paste the article about breastfeeding which I mentioned to Lucy the other day for you:

www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2007/07/070722213303.htm

I told my mom the other day that one of my biggest fears about having my baby is that I will not be able to breastfeed, since I've always wanted to do it!

But at the end of the day I think you're right, if it makes your baby so unhappy, it might be better to just give him the bottle. You can't sit with a screaming child day in and day out - it's going to burn you out!

Lucy that pic is toooo gorgeous!!

AnjeD it sounds like your dr has made up her mind that your baby will be born one way or another on Monday. Jippee!!

Well ladies...just a quick update.

We went for our newborn shoot - thank God he was so good so at least we'll be getting nice photos! Problem is he is so strong. He already holds his head up alone unsupported for minutes at a time and when you try to sit him on your lap, he pushes hard with his legs so that he's standing!! so she didnt manage to get all the positions she wanted as he isnt a 'floppy' baby. but anyway. very excited to get the pics

the last 24 hours of BF has been a nightmare to say the least. It went from one extreme to the other. He is screaming so much until he's red in the face and blue in the lips.
Sometimes it doesnt bother me when he performs so much and other times I just want to cry with him.
Last night I sat in his room pumping bawling my eyes out. This morning I sat and cried with DH that all Matt does is cry.

So...at the 5pm feed I made a decision while he sat there screaming and crying hysterically as I tried to "trick" him from bottle to boob. I just dont want to do this anymore. I feel the benefits of breastmilk are for a baby. but the benefits of breastfeeding are for the mom. so unfortunately I am going to be stopping my breastfeeding quest. I hate feeding times so much. (everyone in the house does). I am becoming exceptionally depressed about it. Initially I just wanted him to get breastmilk - that was the most important thing. But as time is passing, I am getting so depressed that he wont latch and I am actually starting to resent him (yes - I know that is horrible and yes I feel like a terrible mom).
So as I sat watching him screaming for over an hour and then watching how happy he was to finally be given the bottle, I just realised I am being too selfish. I have tried as hard as I can. It's just too much now.
So I will be stopping the torture to my child and just continue pumping for him so at least he still gets breast milk.

I am very sad about this decision. I am jealous of everyone who is BF successfully! I cant understand why I am the one who has to struggle so much and now give up. I am so sad I wont get that bonding experience like you all have. But I also cant keep on at it and get more and more depressed.

Another thing is that his tongue only needs to be cut in order for him to breastfeed. It may not have any affect on his speech or anything. So I also felt like I am putting him through a surgery so I can breastfeed...another selfish thing. I really wish he would just latch and feed - but I guess it's not meant to be for me

On a brighter note....He had his feed at 11pm last night and I set my alarm to feed him at 3am (apparently I must wake him...) but I slept through the alarm until 5am and he was still sleeping!!!! Lactation consultant called today to see how I am (was still certain about BF at this stage...) and she said if he sleeps at night, I must leave him. No need to wake him. So I hope we get another long stretch tonight. I was suppose to see lactation consultant on Monday but I will call her tomorrow and let her know my decision (I am sure she is going to try change my mind).
My nipples are cracked and bleeding from trying to force him to latch in his angered state - so at least I can get a bit of relief now...

sorry for the selfish post (seems the norm these days...)

Anje cant believe you are still going strong!!!!
and Lucy - she is just too precious for words

Lucy, that photo of T is gorgeous !!

Hi ladies,

Just quickly want to mention that I am a little confused now, dr said that if L is not here by Monday I should go to the maternity ward at hospital to monitor her for a little while, so this morning I contacted my medical aid to find out if this will be covered by the authorisation nr for the labour or do I need to get a new one. They advised me to get the relevant codes, in the process of getting the codes my husband was told by the hospital admin lady that she spoke to my dr whom said that she will visit me in hospital on Monday and decide there after whether she will go ahead with c-sec or induction and therefore it will be covered under the authorisation nr for the labour. So we will see what happens on Monday and let you all know.

Hope you all have a fabulous weekend.

Emsmom - Hee hee, snap !! I call myself the dairy queen !!

Schatsie - Shoo that is interesting. I got a good early latch so I am happy about BFing just the routine I wasn't sure about. But I have done a little from lots of people and a lot of my instinct and I am happy with where I am! Enjoy the x stitch. And grrrrr to the back pain.

Morning ladies

Mistymom how's your first day of ML so far? Did you manage to sleep late? I had bad backache this morning, nearly thought it was labour pains, but it's gone now. So noluck for me on sleeping late!

Meags I'm SO happy for you that Matt is finally BFing!! It must be a huge weight off your mind! So what if it's with the nipple shield, as long as it works!

Emsmom wow, Kate really does sound like a very easy baby so far! You're so lucky!

BettyF gee you're brave to still work for so long! I've been in 2 minds about going off 3 weeks before my due date, because really my work is not physically streneous and I really enjoy it most of the time, but with the pelvis and back aches it just became really uncomfortable to walk to my car or even the office bathroom or kitchen.

Lucy, I'm really happy for you that you're feeling more confident about the BF! I read an article yesterday which I sent to my mom a while ago when my cousin was battling with the BF. Interestingly it said that moms who suffer from post natal depression often battle with BF and battling with the BF can also cause depression, especially with a first baby when one doesn't feel all that confident from the beginning.

Anje wow, you must be the world's most patient person to be way past your due date and still so calm and collected! Were you the same with your first baby? Clearly I'm the complete opposite - I can't wait for my baby to come and actually I am still 4 weeks from my actual due date. I'm 36 wks today, so I'm waiting 1 more week and then trying anything possible to make my little man come early! (Although I think DH will have a fit if he found out - he's SO scared of me going into actual labour. )

ClaireC, nice to hear from you again - you've been scarce.

So I'm sitting at home doing as little as possible. Did a bit of cross stitch on the blanky my mom crocheted for baby. I will post a pic when I'm done. Other than that I started watching Sex and the City from the beginning. And I'm waiting for my friend to come visit - today was her first gynae appt since she discovered her pregnancy and she was so excited about it, so I'm sure she will have plenty to tell me. And my ex mother in law is coming for a visit this afternoon. I'm going to try and have someone visit me or go and visit someone at least every 2nd day - otherwise I will get cabin fever!

Hope you all have a good day.